To: Every Bit of Me

Baby girl, you have the tools to succeed within. They’re all there, you just have to be patient and kind with yourself, because the healing road is long and winding and bumpy and sometimes there’s boulders that block your way but you keep moving because you have to.

More than that, you want to.

The is no alternative now that you know, you KNOW you’re not the same person you were even a year ago, you know too much now. You’ve peeked behind the curtain and you’re no longer denying the reality, how could you live in blissful ignorance now?

You can’t.

And yet there’s a lot of doubts going on in your head right now. You think maybe you should have just said you need a break and some space for a while, that you need to work on some stuff and that you might come back when and if you’re ready. You think that you should have said let’s be friends, and you know that’s too confusing for you, talking everyday and sometimes seeing each other but still casually dating. That would have been confusing because doing things halfway was never for you.

Damn, there it is again — that all-or-nothing thing that you’re prone to. But it’s ok. You will learn to soften the edges of that just a bit in time.

You made a choice and are now moving forward. You’ve got stuff to focus on and that person has stuff…